Be bold, be a bad bitc$, or both

 Be bold. I recently (two hours ago) just ended a relationship. While he did do things that led to the ending of the relationship, I am coming to terms with the fact that it was not all on him. I grew up very sparse on love, thus even maintaining this relationship for as long as I have is a huge achievement. However this scarcity of love set the tone for my relationship or past relationship. Ha. I just now realize in the beginning months of our relationship, I was very unsure in my love for him. At this point I had learned to love myself and do it thorough, I was a bad bitc$ in the best way. I was so uncomfortable with the idea of loving him that maybe I did put those energetic waves into our relationship. Just to be clear, this isn’t an excuse on his behalf. I don’t know if he was ever a good partner. However, is it growth on my end knowing that it was not all his fault. I didn’t deserve what he did to me, but I did after all play a role. I am writing this after I have ended a relationship with a man who has not been great to me. A constant tug and pull. Be bold in your love for your partner always and expect the same so you never have to question your past and future decisions and always stay a bad bitc$. Find what that means to you in your relationship.